New Move Resolution

You know how everyone makes New Years resolutions, well I like to make resolutions every time I move.  So here are some of things that I want to work on when we move to Utah.

1.  I want to be more out going.  I'm definitely a person who would rather have someone come up to me to start a first conversation than the other way around.  I do good if there's a group of people and I know at least one other person who knows other people.  I can make friends that way but it's more of my comfort zone to sit by myself than to go and introduce myself to others.

2.  I want to be more open minded about Utah.  When I lived in Utah I was the person complaining all about it but I realized that I was being rude and very close minded.  I hate when people trash talk Hawaii and I don't want to do that Utah anymore.  There are it's good qualities.

3.  I need to cook more.  I HATE cooking.  But now that I really haven't been cooking I've seen the crap that my husband feeds my kids and himself and it needs to change.  I've been calling myself a smart body, like a smart house, because I can literally detect healthy food from crap food just using my nose.  Whenever I smell crap food I dry heave and have to run from the house.  So my goal is to have three meals on the table with healthy snacks in between.  I'm afraid this is going to be the hardest task for me.

4.  Besides being more outgoing with making friends, I want to be more outgoing with every other aspect.  I want to do more service, because of my lack of cooking/baking I've never given anyone brownies or snacks or treats.  I know you don't have to give treats as the only means of service, but it's the best tasting and one that I've always enjoyed.  I want to fulfill my calling 110% even though it may be in the nursery or primary, please no! :)  I want to go to all the church activities and relief society events that I can.  I would only go to the fun ones or the ones that would have dinner, but I know I need to be better.  Those functions are for us as women and I probably have missed out on a lot of good things because I didn't want to go.

5.  I think with being more outgoing comes the need for more confidence.  I'm always over thinking and sometimes I have and other people have, missed out on a lot of things because I'm not confident enough.  I've baked cookies to give other people before but then I think they're not good enough, or I've wanted to call somebody but don't because I think of what they could be doing and I don't want to disturb them.  I say, "I'm sorry" when things aren't even my fault.  I need to stop thinking and be more confident!

Now that my brain is working I've realized that these things are just scratching the surface.  I want to change so much more.  I feel like I've already started because before when we decided to move to Utah I had in my head a picture of how I was going to behave.  Being a recluse, rolling my eyes at the people there, complaining about the weather, yada, yada, yada.  I've realized I need to step outside of myself.  I've missed out on some fun things just because it started to become a fad and I don't like to be another lemming but it was really something I loved to do.  I'm getting really excited for this move now.  I actually can't wait to be dry, and cool rather than hot and sticky.  I'm excited to meet new people and try new things.  I really don't know how if I'll succeed in anything on my list but I wanted to write it all down, with you all as my witnesses, so that I'll at least try.  Wish me luck!